I saw your face today
I thought I was OK
But the days that followed had me spinning in a direction I once fled from
I wanted to be alone
I wanted the world to be silent
I wanted to cry for hours
FEAR found me again.
I saw your face today
I thought I was OK
Yet every moment you and I had replayed in my mind like a horror film
Is there a doctor to purge me of these memories?
A healer to take away this pain
A hypnotist to remove this part of my life?
I rendered to you your forgiveness…willingly
EVERY DAY I STILL CHOOSE TO FORGIVE
Why the heck can I not forget?!
How can abuse be embedded so deep you feel cursed?
As the memories, the words, even the feelings replay so vividly once triggered
You go back to that time and relive it all…AGAIN
Some will say I haven’t truly forgiven
I will say you have no idea what you’re talking about as I have forgiven
Some will say I harbor a grudge
Again, you have no idea how much I have prayed for the best and care still for someone who thought so little of me, I understand this fallen world. As I have had my share of mistakes.
I am a survivor of something terrible. And sometimes the world takes you back in order to destroy you. So everyday I must fight, sword in hand, His Word in my heart, and press on with the very best because God resides in me. His Grace is sufficient. Because of Him I can move forward even after being thrown back so hard.
I saw your face the other day
And though it through me into a dark place
I have recovered
I will not succumb to be your victim
Because of Christ & my husband, I am a survivor.
I love this! And I too understand your pain. Thank you for sharing!
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It’s so nice to find someone who truly gets it, you know? You and I have a lot in common it seems. Thank you for commenting.
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Always here to talk us warriors have to stick together!
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