On April 5, 2014 we were blessed to be given the opportunity to adopt a beautiful little 5 year old girl. It has been a journey. Some days have been much harder than others, however each day a total blessing regardless. Today was one of those ‘much harder’ days and I decided to write my princess a letter.
I’m not sure why this fire is so fierce inside of me. Why I can’t just turn my head let you be so little when you have so much to offer.
I see a warrior princess in you my daughter.
Things haven’t been fair and you’ve been tossed to the side not only by your biologicals but yet another family. Expendable is what you felt. And that might have been the case until God landed you in my lap.
I know trust is hard to give when you’ve been shattered. I know anger boils down so deep you wish you could be a dragon and spew fire just to feel some relief from all that pressure inside. Little one, I know, I have been there. I know what all this feels like and I know it is so easy to develop an exterior shell that serves as protection never to be hurt again. Not like that. Not by any human. You never want to hurt again, you’re tired of it, so you hide within yourself and do life for you, at any cost, lying, cheating, stealing, manipulating without taking any thought into thought how it affects those around you. It’s self preservation. It’s survival mode. I get it. I have been there.
But my princess, I will not let you stay this way. I will hold you by the hand and help you arise out of the ash heap. You will be victorious. You, too, will be an overcomer. I will hold you accountable. I will praise you and cherish you. I will show you a Father who loves you so deeply words cannot define. I will be your Queen (momma) and you will be my Princess and as long as we keep The King of Kings by our side, we will see your life full of healing and purpose. I promise you. But I will never let you settle for being less than you are. I promise you that. You will not use lying, cheating, stealing nor manipulation to generate a fulfilling life. I will show you love, joy, peace, patience, and kindness. I will be an example of long-suffering, gentleness and protection. You will overcome. Because in my eyes that is what you are, an overcomer. Therefore, I will not let you settle for anything less.
To my princess,
Love your momma